December something update lol

Christmas is over, I got nothing I wanted, of course everyone gets what they don't want LOL!

Well over here in Morley, Alberta. I went for a drive to the "ghost" let's just say I almost couldn't get out of my drive way, and the roads was bad (like you can barley see them cuz of the blowing snow across it, so you can't see the lines.) I barley made it home, I was basically  in the middle of the road the entire time (my motto, if they see me, they better get out of the way, or go in the ditch cuz I'm not moving! LOL!)

But I made it back home!

I'm selfish, rude. I will do anything to do what I want to do. Just so I'm not bored. I get bored really easily. But when it comes to people I actually care about I really try to make an effort. Sometimes it's hard. But I always try to make it work.

It feels like I gotta redo everything now, since the new year is gonna start. I'm not afraid of that.
I just heard that my best friend is gonna be spending new years in quebec. I hope to see her soon before that, once I'm not scared of driving into the city (she always drove for me anyways) so can you see how scared I am.

I miss you Tish, I wish I can see you. I miss our 3 fun buddies (tish, weis and me). LOL!
OH God!!!!!

It feels like this wind it will blow down my house!!!!!!!!

Oh and last minute update! I'm watching House!!!!!!!
Love that show!!!!!!

Morning and life shit!

Ok well today has been confusing?
I did everything that was suppose to be done and yet I'm still confused?
Me and Kane
- woke up
- talked to each other
- had our tea
-got ready for the day
- kissed him "good luck on his day" Than he left for work.
And I did my errands for the day.
Isn't life suppose to be like this? (like in the movies and stuffs?)
Why do I feel like something is missing?

I shouldn't be talking. I'm trying to get my life straight as it is. But inside me it always feels like i'm missing something (and i don't know what at the moment).

Well the only way to figure that out is to tell you about my days till i figure it out!!!!!!!

Well today I had to be in Calgary by 11am.
I slept on the ride and I was a lil bit hungover from the night before.
AND IF YOU REALLY KNOW ME, YOU KNOW I WON'T DO SHIT TILL 11 OR 11:30! 
I DON'T DO SHIT BEFORE 10!!!!!!!!!!!
(I MEAN DRINKING! YOU PERVERTS! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK I WAS TALKING ABOUT?!?!) 

Yeah I admit I have a drinking problem, But I'll start on my new routine next week! (only drink on weekends!)

This new plan can help so much! (Hopefully)


Yeah, yeah I made this promise to myself before………
But this time I plan to stick to it,
I wanna have a better life than this and this is the only way.
And also I promised my Kane
Sometimes I just want to give up but than I remember he has my back and he is always on my side.
Looks like I have to get use to the feeling.

Since I was homeless and a street kid when I was a teenager.
But times do change, everything changes for everyone.
I just gotta learn to accept it.

xoxo
till next time!

Sky Scream

Hair Stuffz

Ok so I think I'm going to make a journal on different hair products.
Well I'm trying to grow out my hair (and my hair sadly breaks at a certain point.
I wish I had my old hair back!!!!!!!!

Yeah! I was pretty and cute back then! LOL!

But I've decided to test the shampoo and conditioners that promise results!
I'll record the type of shampoo and conditioner, when i started it and when it ended, and the result from the product. Basically if it worked or if it is a sham!
There has got to be some miracle to let us help our hair grow! I hope I find it!!!! Wish me luck!!!! I'll keep you updated!!!!


xoxo

Sky Scream

Try To Figure It Out

Well have you evert felt like you really want to do something and you have your mind is set on something (activity, routine, life, etc) but something is stopping you?

Lately I've been feeling that.

I don't know if it's lack of motivation or something I forgot todo but it's getting to me.
Plus it's been making me moody and grouchy.

I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!


I've been testing out some theories on how to get rid of this feeling. 
Here's my list:

1. Drink beer. Drink Up!!!!!
Maybe getting tipsy, buzzed, drunk, or shit faced will spark up a idea of what 
I was missing. (Or to have 1 of a good time, it really all depends on how you look at the situation)

2. SLEEP!!!!!
Cuz who doesn't love sleep! it restarts you every morning (or night. It don't matter I don't judge) and gives you a feeling of a new day new start kind of thing you kno?



And to be honest that hasn't been working for me.
So maybe to get out of this funk is another theory I've had:

1. WAKE UP IN THE MORNINGS!!!!!!
So i can make it into school, instead of waking up at 3pm. (basically wasting my whole day away)

2. TALKING!!!!!!!!
Because lately my boyfriend and I have not been talking about our feelings, thoughts, and saying what we really want to say.
To be honest we've been silent and mad at each other for no reason!! And it's been driving me crazy!!!
We need to set some rules for each other and our relationship so we don't get into the same situation again or IDK? Something like that tho.

3. DON'T GET LAZY!
I don't know how to spell the word but basically when you want to do something but you get lazy and you don't. (You know the feeling) FORCE YOURSELF TO GET UP AND DO WHATEVER THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE!

4. GET BUSY!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to make myself busy, as should you too. 
I'm trying to each time on my day to do something, basically to keep me busy. (Hopefully this will shake off the feeling)

Well yeah those are my so called steps I'll try on myself.
I'll let you know if they really worked.

I'll keep you posted!!!!

xoxo 

INSULT!!!!

Can you believe this!!!!!!!
This post was deleted after it was posted.
(sorry for the blurryness)