Christmas update

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

I know it's been a long time to update, but I will (I got some motivation on that theory).
Single

And got what I wanted for my birthday (14th btw) iphone7.

Lots of food, annoying family members. Believe me I wanted to leave really quick when I got there. TBH at that moment I can only stand my sibs, my mom, and grandparents. But the rest of them, to much talking. I'm more to myself, ATM. 

Well I've always had passion for writing. And I guess "shows" gave me motivation, and ideas in what I wanted to do. "Ideas".


I was so happy when by baby bro and sis got there presents from me, but when I saw my 3 cousins only got 1. It made me feel bad. I mean I didn't know, if I did I would of bought more. But the rez special came up to $500. So I thought priority.


Well I've been thinking.....
Keeping my laptop 24/7
I always have something to say or report.
That's my new  years resolution. REPORT EVERYTHING!

Makes me think I gotta clean everything, room, laptop, cell, all!
I kinda wanna be like House (true story)

Update August

Hey you! 

Wow! It's been so long since I blogged, I promise to keep you up to date from now on!

Well, Ive gotten extensions put in my hair............and I LOVE THEM!!!!!
I joined World Health gym, and I got a personal trainer! It's the best! I mean the amount of money I spend a month is actually worth it!

But this summer I've been in this youth program (It's suppose to put you in different jobs to gain work experience. But it's SHIT! They really need to hire some people to run this program because the people doing it now have no clue what there doing!) But an easy way to earn cash I guess?

Oh yeah! 
And my cousin Tia came to live with me and my great aunt.
I'm not gonna complain she has been a big help! She cleans and cooks, and keeps my grandmother (great aunt) happy. And it's nice to have some one young like I am around the house.
Gotta give props to my cousin Tia for making my life less stressful!

But lately I've had no cash on me because bills built up over the summer. OMG this is the first that ever happened! I now understand why people say I wish I was a kid again! Same here!!!

I still want things, I want to improve in my life, I got one done (working out 4 times a week). But (yeah i gotta admit when I'm bored I drink) cut down and do something that will keep me busy. BUT HEY! At least I'm making baby steps to improve my life! It's hard I gotta admit! I have low self discipline ( and YES I hate myself for that!) But baby steps you know, baby steps.

I'm not saying I have a problem, it;s just i'm ADHD and I gotta have something todo to keep me busy. And believe me, on the rez you can get extremely BORED!!!!!!! So yeah, I'm trying to come up with other options for me to do. It's been hard. But at least I haven't given up!

Anyways at the moment it's 1:58 am and I'm watching Jeepers Creepers 2. And I'm kinda getting creeped out LOL!

But anyways my upcoming posts will be more me............if you catch my drift! With pics and shit I mean LOL! 

Anyways I'll keep you posted!!!! PROMISE!!!!!!!

XOXO

Finally a new year!

Well it's a new year!

I can't believe the year went by so quickly! But I have a new motto. NEW YEAR! NEW ME! (and this time I'm dedicated to that!) New routine, be more focused, etc. I'm excited about it!

And I will be getting my new ride soon! I just have to wait for my dad to get back to me. I'm very excited about that!

I just have to teach myself how to get up early (it's a struggle cuz I love my sleep LOL!)

I'm just so glad elections and Christmas are over (FINALLY!) it was filled with drama and stupidity! BTW congrats grandpa for getting back in! I'm proud you took the high road a chose to ignore all those nasty rumors and gossip your competitors were spreading about you (at least someone took the mature way of handling it!). OMG! You wouldn't believe the stuff they were saying about him, all the lies! they were just trying to make him look bad so he can lose the elections, it was very unprofessional and it just showed how immature their campaign was. But in the end he won fair and square! I'm so proud of him!

And TBH I wouldn't want to vote for someone that spent all the band's money and made the band almost be broke! (Yes the competitor did that 4-5 years ago when he was in term, and he still has no explanation to where the money went.) And you never talked about the issues and what he was willing to do for the whole community to improve, only relied on gossip and lies to win this race. To me that's not a leader. And I'm thinking others started to see that too.

Well the drama is over with and we can all get back to normal! For at least for another 4 years then the drama will start up all over again!

Well this is gonna be a short post! I'll keep you updated!

xoxo    

Happy New Year Everyone!

Try To Figure It Out

Well have you evert felt like you really want to do something and you have your mind is set on something (activity, routine, life, etc) but something is stopping you?

Lately I've been feeling that.

I don't know if it's lack of motivation or something I forgot todo but it's getting to me.
Plus it's been making me moody and grouchy.

I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!


I've been testing out some theories on how to get rid of this feeling. 
Here's my list:

1. Drink beer. Drink Up!!!!!
Maybe getting tipsy, buzzed, drunk, or shit faced will spark up a idea of what 
I was missing. (Or to have 1 of a good time, it really all depends on how you look at the situation)

2. SLEEP!!!!!
Cuz who doesn't love sleep! it restarts you every morning (or night. It don't matter I don't judge) and gives you a feeling of a new day new start kind of thing you kno?



And to be honest that hasn't been working for me.
So maybe to get out of this funk is another theory I've had:

1. WAKE UP IN THE MORNINGS!!!!!!
So i can make it into school, instead of waking up at 3pm. (basically wasting my whole day away)

2. TALKING!!!!!!!!
Because lately my boyfriend and I have not been talking about our feelings, thoughts, and saying what we really want to say.
To be honest we've been silent and mad at each other for no reason!! And it's been driving me crazy!!!
We need to set some rules for each other and our relationship so we don't get into the same situation again or IDK? Something like that tho.

3. DON'T GET LAZY!
I don't know how to spell the word but basically when you want to do something but you get lazy and you don't. (You know the feeling) FORCE YOURSELF TO GET UP AND DO WHATEVER THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE!

4. GET BUSY!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to make myself busy, as should you too. 
I'm trying to each time on my day to do something, basically to keep me busy. (Hopefully this will shake off the feeling)

Well yeah those are my so called steps I'll try on myself.
I'll let you know if they really worked.

I'll keep you posted!!!!

xoxo 

Need new routine

I admit I have a lot of notebooks and binders for different things, 
-blogs I like and want to remember 
-ideas for projects styles I like 
-fashions I like 
-budgets, etc. 
Basically anything I can think of I would have a notebook or binder for. Naturally you would think I would be on "top " of things but personally my discipline with myself is very low, I do stupid things that I know that I shouldn't but I still do it, I'm only human.





But the kind of routine I've always wanted was Jane Ryan's routine.

She is just a character that Ashley Olsen plays, but in my eyes she just seems like "the kind of person I want to be"

Jane just seems so balanced to me (something I've personally needed in my life BTW)
So my new goal is to somewhat have her sort of routine in my life.
Ill keep you posted if I succeeded or not and give you some tips if you guys want any.
Wish me luck!

XOXO