New additions to my pack!

Well still trying to make a change even through the new years.

Well since the last update, I've took in 2 dogs. Not at the same time.

I took in Lacus (that's what I named her) I found her by my school. From what I saw before her previous owner dropped her off on the highway (looks like he was letting her go pee) but he quickly hopped in his jeep and sped away. At first I went back into my school cause my break was over and I thought she was going to be okay. Then I went to lunch. When I came back She ran to me, she just wanted to be with me. She wouldn't let anyone else come near her except me. So I had to take her home, I wanted to take her home. It was a fight with my great aunt it keep her (since I already had 4 dogs already) But I wouldn't take no for an answer! I Won at the end! And She has been a wonderful addition to my pack LOL! She was with me since September.


And Hilary 2nd (or Hilary for short)
I just got her last week. She's such a young puppy. and a weenier dog! (hot dog puppy!)  (one of my dream dogs fyi!) Well at first I knew I had a lot of dogs. I wasn't looking to take in another one. But when my mom said her friend has weenier puppies up for grabs. My mom reserved one. So when we went to go pick him up, Fudz gave us 2 puppies, 1 was the only one left and left alone. So of course I couldn't say no. I'm not that type of person to abandon a animal in need.. So of course I took her in. I named her Hilary! She is so cute and tiny!!!!!

I have a lot of dogs. But I love all of them!

People judge me for having a lot of dogs, especially my family.
That make fun of me, be mean to me and such, But I'm not like them. I really love animals! Of all species, I cannot be mean to them, I don't believe in that. I always get upset with my family when they are cruel or mean to there pets. I always get upset so that's why I try to leave or else I will start a fight.

That's why I'm different from my family, probably why they treat me different.

Sux for me

No one will ever change my beliefs or principles, even thought my dad is a hunter (and he does it for fun, which makes me sad)

Maybe it's an opposite thing?

My dad Shane loves hunting things, killing things, mounting them.
But me I hate it all. I get so upset with all of that stuff. HEY I SUPPORT PETA! I hate hunting in general.

See opposite!
Maybe that's his karma LOL!

That would be a funny joke if it was lol!

Well I'll update tomorrow!

nite!

xoxo

SkyScream

I'm not surprised

Today was so draining!

IDK I just had no energy today. I felt so tired (and for some reason I couldn't even take a nap), I felt like my insides were shaking, it was an ugly feeling. But than again it was probably the hangover taking it's toll. I'm fine now but my whole day was wasted.

And surprise surprise!

After hearing through family gossip, my grandparents won't help me out with my car.

Well let's just say I'm not surprised about there decision.

But I think it's sort of unfair. I mean they get my uncles and aunty cars all the time (even my cousins!) and they always find ways to wreck there cars. Like my cousin took of with my aunty's car one time and he ended up empty on gas so he left it there, the next morning the car was set on fire.

They also get my cousins computers, mp3s, phones, motor bikes, A FUCKING PONY!!!
Taking them to Arizona and las vegas!

And I barley ask for anything from them!

And when I ask, there answer is always NO!

I get it!
That's there favourite grandkids. Whatever help I need doesn't matter to them.It's so stupid! I mean I go to school full-time, I don't have any kids and I'm not trying to get pregnant, I'm not a all out party girl (like my mom). And yet my cousins are doing the opposite of what I'm doing, they barley go to school, they go out and party and do drugs, they have kids they aren't even taking care of. Is something wrong with this view?

Well whatever!

I'm use to this, it's always been this way all my life but I just never had the chance to say it. I tried to work with them on a repayment plan or anyway to pay them back, But all I get is a big fat NO!

Oh well I figure out a new way to fix or get a new car.
I've been thinking of just getting new credit cards getting the cash advance to get a new car. Sure I'll most likely be in debt for like 10 years or longer, but I really do need a car.
I don't know? It's just an idea.

Or either getting a loan?

I don't know? These are all ideas. I haven't made up my mind on anything yet.

I got a lot to think about. Hopefully tomorrow I can have some new ideas.


xoxo

Thank you Jamie

Here's my babies saying HELLO!!!!!!!

From Audrey to Hannah and Raquel!!!!!!




Anyways lately I've been thinking about what kind of life I want to have……
And to be honest I would want my friend Jamie's life.
She's married to someone she loves, she has 3 beautiful kids and she has a job that she loves and keeps doing!

I would kill for a life like that!!!!!!! Actually I'm trying to get my life like that.

She tells me she's been to the hospital for over working herself………..Well hell can i switch with you to see how that feels! (because someone like me will never feel that)
But seriously I wish I can have what you have or the experience.
I'm tryna make myself a workaholic but its slowly coming.

IDK most people will think it's unhealthy to think like this but if you know me, and how I grew up then this is a fucking improvement!!!!!!


All I'm saying is I want to get married to someone I love, have kids and get paid to do the things I love/like. Is that to much to ask for?



I guess you can say the life I want is my friend Jamie's, the experiences, the security, the truth and honest living.
IDK how I can explain it more……….  but just the motivation in everything in life, family, love home, work. I want that!!!!!!!

Let's just say Jamie has been 1 of my idols growing up (mother, best friend) and through all the ups and downs it seems like she prepared me for that (I'm ready for it).

I'm ready to make my life how I want it to be, and it's all thanks to her.



xoxoxo  

Morning and life shit!

Ok well today has been confusing?
I did everything that was suppose to be done and yet I'm still confused?
Me and Kane
- woke up
- talked to each other
- had our tea
-got ready for the day
- kissed him "good luck on his day" Than he left for work.
And I did my errands for the day.
Isn't life suppose to be like this? (like in the movies and stuffs?)
Why do I feel like something is missing?

I shouldn't be talking. I'm trying to get my life straight as it is. But inside me it always feels like i'm missing something (and i don't know what at the moment).

Well the only way to figure that out is to tell you about my days till i figure it out!!!!!!!

Well today I had to be in Calgary by 11am.
I slept on the ride and I was a lil bit hungover from the night before.
AND IF YOU REALLY KNOW ME, YOU KNOW I WON'T DO SHIT TILL 11 OR 11:30! 
I DON'T DO SHIT BEFORE 10!!!!!!!!!!!
(I MEAN DRINKING! YOU PERVERTS! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK I WAS TALKING ABOUT?!?!) 

Yeah I admit I have a drinking problem, But I'll start on my new routine next week! (only drink on weekends!)

This new plan can help so much! (Hopefully)


Yeah, yeah I made this promise to myself before………
But this time I plan to stick to it,
I wanna have a better life than this and this is the only way.
And also I promised my Kane
Sometimes I just want to give up but than I remember he has my back and he is always on my side.
Looks like I have to get use to the feeling.

Since I was homeless and a street kid when I was a teenager.
But times do change, everything changes for everyone.
I just gotta learn to accept it.

xoxo
till next time!

Sky Scream

Try To Figure It Out

Well have you evert felt like you really want to do something and you have your mind is set on something (activity, routine, life, etc) but something is stopping you?

Lately I've been feeling that.

I don't know if it's lack of motivation or something I forgot todo but it's getting to me.
Plus it's been making me moody and grouchy.

I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!


I've been testing out some theories on how to get rid of this feeling. 
Here's my list:

1. Drink beer. Drink Up!!!!!
Maybe getting tipsy, buzzed, drunk, or shit faced will spark up a idea of what 
I was missing. (Or to have 1 of a good time, it really all depends on how you look at the situation)

2. SLEEP!!!!!
Cuz who doesn't love sleep! it restarts you every morning (or night. It don't matter I don't judge) and gives you a feeling of a new day new start kind of thing you kno?



And to be honest that hasn't been working for me.
So maybe to get out of this funk is another theory I've had:

1. WAKE UP IN THE MORNINGS!!!!!!
So i can make it into school, instead of waking up at 3pm. (basically wasting my whole day away)

2. TALKING!!!!!!!!
Because lately my boyfriend and I have not been talking about our feelings, thoughts, and saying what we really want to say.
To be honest we've been silent and mad at each other for no reason!! And it's been driving me crazy!!!
We need to set some rules for each other and our relationship so we don't get into the same situation again or IDK? Something like that tho.

3. DON'T GET LAZY!
I don't know how to spell the word but basically when you want to do something but you get lazy and you don't. (You know the feeling) FORCE YOURSELF TO GET UP AND DO WHATEVER THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE!

4. GET BUSY!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to make myself busy, as should you too. 
I'm trying to each time on my day to do something, basically to keep me busy. (Hopefully this will shake off the feeling)

Well yeah those are my so called steps I'll try on myself.
I'll let you know if they really worked.

I'll keep you posted!!!!

xoxo 

Happy life but still stress!

Well my life has been busy, school full time while raising 5 puppies at the same time, it's stressful. But I wouldn't give up on them, each one has there own unique personality of there own.
To be honest I'd rather have puppies than children right now, at my point in my life I'm not ready for that yet, basically it's sort of like training you can say (in a way?).

The work is hard, but what would you do?
If you guys have any advice on raising puppies then let me know!

Wish me luck!!!!

xoxo