Should of known

It's 12:04 am and I'm watching another scary movie..........Mirrors.
This is a bad habit before bedtime.

Well all sort of stuff has been in my head today.......... This will come up in future posts. But let's just say it's a lot!

Looks like Tia is gonna go to sleep, so I should move my ass in my room. (She sleeps in the living room) (and also I still gotta take a shower tonight or else it will be a fight in the morning with her LOL!)



Well it's almost 1 now. Shower finished. I just can't sleep in wet hair tho, it will tangle up my extensions.

Just checked my Facebook today, some messages were ignored (that's a first). Kinda pissed. Here I am wanting to make new friends at work, and them the same. But when I make a effort, I just get ignored. Or shunned. LIARS! LOL!

I'm tryna push my limit, meet new people, make new friends, even tho I am very shy at the moment (but if you really get to know me I'm very loud and silly, and actually a lil girly LOL!)

I should of known people from Morley are kinda like this.
MY BAD!

But oh well keep trying, but with different people.
No point of doing that with people in Morley. (no offence)

XOXO

Update August

Hey you! 

Wow! It's been so long since I blogged, I promise to keep you up to date from now on!

Well, Ive gotten extensions put in my hair............and I LOVE THEM!!!!!
I joined World Health gym, and I got a personal trainer! It's the best! I mean the amount of money I spend a month is actually worth it!

But this summer I've been in this youth program (It's suppose to put you in different jobs to gain work experience. But it's SHIT! They really need to hire some people to run this program because the people doing it now have no clue what there doing!) But an easy way to earn cash I guess?

Oh yeah! 
And my cousin Tia came to live with me and my great aunt.
I'm not gonna complain she has been a big help! She cleans and cooks, and keeps my grandmother (great aunt) happy. And it's nice to have some one young like I am around the house.
Gotta give props to my cousin Tia for making my life less stressful!

But lately I've had no cash on me because bills built up over the summer. OMG this is the first that ever happened! I now understand why people say I wish I was a kid again! Same here!!!

I still want things, I want to improve in my life, I got one done (working out 4 times a week). But (yeah i gotta admit when I'm bored I drink) cut down and do something that will keep me busy. BUT HEY! At least I'm making baby steps to improve my life! It's hard I gotta admit! I have low self discipline ( and YES I hate myself for that!) But baby steps you know, baby steps.

I'm not saying I have a problem, it;s just i'm ADHD and I gotta have something todo to keep me busy. And believe me, on the rez you can get extremely BORED!!!!!!! So yeah, I'm trying to come up with other options for me to do. It's been hard. But at least I haven't given up!

Anyways at the moment it's 1:58 am and I'm watching Jeepers Creepers 2. And I'm kinda getting creeped out LOL!

But anyways my upcoming posts will be more me............if you catch my drift! With pics and shit I mean LOL! 

Anyways I'll keep you posted!!!! PROMISE!!!!!!!

XOXO

Finally a new year!

Well it's a new year!

I can't believe the year went by so quickly! But I have a new motto. NEW YEAR! NEW ME! (and this time I'm dedicated to that!) New routine, be more focused, etc. I'm excited about it!

And I will be getting my new ride soon! I just have to wait for my dad to get back to me. I'm very excited about that!

I just have to teach myself how to get up early (it's a struggle cuz I love my sleep LOL!)

I'm just so glad elections and Christmas are over (FINALLY!) it was filled with drama and stupidity! BTW congrats grandpa for getting back in! I'm proud you took the high road a chose to ignore all those nasty rumors and gossip your competitors were spreading about you (at least someone took the mature way of handling it!). OMG! You wouldn't believe the stuff they were saying about him, all the lies! they were just trying to make him look bad so he can lose the elections, it was very unprofessional and it just showed how immature their campaign was. But in the end he won fair and square! I'm so proud of him!

And TBH I wouldn't want to vote for someone that spent all the band's money and made the band almost be broke! (Yes the competitor did that 4-5 years ago when he was in term, and he still has no explanation to where the money went.) And you never talked about the issues and what he was willing to do for the whole community to improve, only relied on gossip and lies to win this race. To me that's not a leader. And I'm thinking others started to see that too.

Well the drama is over with and we can all get back to normal! For at least for another 4 years then the drama will start up all over again!

Well this is gonna be a short post! I'll keep you updated!

xoxo    

Happy New Year Everyone!

Projects I Really Want to Do!

Well today is official!

I started the cabbage soup diet. ugh!

By the end of the 7 days Ill be begging for a pizza lol!

The reason why I'm doing this is because I keep hearing about "the cabbage soup diet" and how it can help you lose 10lbs in 1 week. I'm willing to try this out to see if it really works. Besides I'm the kind of person that needs to see it to believe it type.

Today was like any other Sunday. Major cleanup day. (sort of?)
Clean the bed sheets, clean up the room, do the laundry, get ready for the school week coming up, just sort sort of my weekly ritual. But for some reason today I felt like I really needed a beer?

I hate that feeling. But at least I'm getting thru it. Sort of proud of myself for not begging for a beer. Now I just gotta keep to it all the way to friday than it's break time.

Just remember Sky just keep busy, just keep swimming, swimming, swimmin! And keep positive! Always think positive thoughts!

Lately I'm obsessed with organized things, like pictures of organized closets, offices, day planners, etc.

IDK?

It's just I wish I had that type of talent, but I'm slowly trying to gain that skill. It's hard and I gotta use my DIY and creative skills, But it will be worth it!

I will soon be this organized!
This shall all be mines soon!!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!

xoxo

Next step: My Closet! (duh duh duh!)

Lately I want to wear my extensions again, wear makeup again.

Before I felt like I didn't need to wear any of it because I had no motivation, I just sort of let go of the idea. But now, I'm not sure what changed? Maybe it's because I want to be this new person, a better person, a new routine. Like they say if you want to be a new you, then you have to be a new you.

Lately Kane and I's life feel like this.

So starting tomorrow or the next day I'm going to clean out my closet and make it organized!
Color-coded and everything!

Today has to be a short post, sorry guys! I promise more details tomorrow!

xoxo

Thank you Jamie

Here's my babies saying HELLO!!!!!!!

From Audrey to Hannah and Raquel!!!!!!




Anyways lately I've been thinking about what kind of life I want to have……
And to be honest I would want my friend Jamie's life.
She's married to someone she loves, she has 3 beautiful kids and she has a job that she loves and keeps doing!

I would kill for a life like that!!!!!!! Actually I'm trying to get my life like that.

She tells me she's been to the hospital for over working herself………..Well hell can i switch with you to see how that feels! (because someone like me will never feel that)
But seriously I wish I can have what you have or the experience.
I'm tryna make myself a workaholic but its slowly coming.

IDK most people will think it's unhealthy to think like this but if you know me, and how I grew up then this is a fucking improvement!!!!!!


All I'm saying is I want to get married to someone I love, have kids and get paid to do the things I love/like. Is that to much to ask for?



I guess you can say the life I want is my friend Jamie's, the experiences, the security, the truth and honest living.
IDK how I can explain it more……….  but just the motivation in everything in life, family, love home, work. I want that!!!!!!!

Let's just say Jamie has been 1 of my idols growing up (mother, best friend) and through all the ups and downs it seems like she prepared me for that (I'm ready for it).

I'm ready to make my life how I want it to be, and it's all thanks to her.



xoxoxo  

Morning and life shit!

Ok well today has been confusing?
I did everything that was suppose to be done and yet I'm still confused?
Me and Kane
- woke up
- talked to each other
- had our tea
-got ready for the day
- kissed him "good luck on his day" Than he left for work.
And I did my errands for the day.
Isn't life suppose to be like this? (like in the movies and stuffs?)
Why do I feel like something is missing?

I shouldn't be talking. I'm trying to get my life straight as it is. But inside me it always feels like i'm missing something (and i don't know what at the moment).

Well the only way to figure that out is to tell you about my days till i figure it out!!!!!!!

Well today I had to be in Calgary by 11am.
I slept on the ride and I was a lil bit hungover from the night before.
AND IF YOU REALLY KNOW ME, YOU KNOW I WON'T DO SHIT TILL 11 OR 11:30! 
I DON'T DO SHIT BEFORE 10!!!!!!!!!!!
(I MEAN DRINKING! YOU PERVERTS! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK I WAS TALKING ABOUT?!?!) 

Yeah I admit I have a drinking problem, But I'll start on my new routine next week! (only drink on weekends!)

This new plan can help so much! (Hopefully)


Yeah, yeah I made this promise to myself before………
But this time I plan to stick to it,
I wanna have a better life than this and this is the only way.
And also I promised my Kane
Sometimes I just want to give up but than I remember he has my back and he is always on my side.
Looks like I have to get use to the feeling.

Since I was homeless and a street kid when I was a teenager.
But times do change, everything changes for everyone.
I just gotta learn to accept it.

xoxo
till next time!

Sky Scream

Motto

Is this your motto?
this is mine! (tryna be)
Don't you agree?
lol!

xoxo