2018 update, new date lol

Well it's been this long since i've been back.

2 years I think?

LOL whatever, at least I'm back.

Ive changed a lot, I'll admit I was a hard drinker (like everyday hardcore), and I was to smoke everyday (more like to every 45 mins a day). But I cut down a huge amount in October. And now everyone is so surprised I made these so "hardcore" decisions. It wasn't hard for me to do all that. I was never really addicted. Smoking or liquor. I just had a unhealthy habit, dealing with problems or emotions like this.
But now i was down, finished, it all bore me. I quit within the first week. I was really bored.

Now strangely, I developed a online shopping addiction, lol (well better than before lol!)
Bet those who know me, asked me, how I kicked it.
Well all I can say......... I was never addicted. I know myself, I was just bored. I even quit cigarettes, it wasn't hard. Like I said, I was bored.

Thats one of the things I hate about me, and love.

Normal people will have some sort of addiction, that will cause them trouble.
I'm not, I just get very bored. I'm not weak-minded. I sort of wished i was.
I'm saying this, cause my family is going thru this problem. I wish i can lend them my strength, mentally.

Well thanks for hearing my rant for tonight.

Sky

Should of known

It's 12:04 am and I'm watching another scary movie..........Mirrors.
This is a bad habit before bedtime.

Well all sort of stuff has been in my head today.......... This will come up in future posts. But let's just say it's a lot!

Looks like Tia is gonna go to sleep, so I should move my ass in my room. (She sleeps in the living room) (and also I still gotta take a shower tonight or else it will be a fight in the morning with her LOL!)



Well it's almost 1 now. Shower finished. I just can't sleep in wet hair tho, it will tangle up my extensions.

Just checked my Facebook today, some messages were ignored (that's a first). Kinda pissed. Here I am wanting to make new friends at work, and them the same. But when I make a effort, I just get ignored. Or shunned. LIARS! LOL!

I'm tryna push my limit, meet new people, make new friends, even tho I am very shy at the moment (but if you really get to know me I'm very loud and silly, and actually a lil girly LOL!)

I should of known people from Morley are kinda like this.
MY BAD!

But oh well keep trying, but with different people.
No point of doing that with people in Morley. (no offence)

XOXO

Finally a new year!

Well it's a new year!

I can't believe the year went by so quickly! But I have a new motto. NEW YEAR! NEW ME! (and this time I'm dedicated to that!) New routine, be more focused, etc. I'm excited about it!

And I will be getting my new ride soon! I just have to wait for my dad to get back to me. I'm very excited about that!

I just have to teach myself how to get up early (it's a struggle cuz I love my sleep LOL!)

I'm just so glad elections and Christmas are over (FINALLY!) it was filled with drama and stupidity! BTW congrats grandpa for getting back in! I'm proud you took the high road a chose to ignore all those nasty rumors and gossip your competitors were spreading about you (at least someone took the mature way of handling it!). OMG! You wouldn't believe the stuff they were saying about him, all the lies! they were just trying to make him look bad so he can lose the elections, it was very unprofessional and it just showed how immature their campaign was. But in the end he won fair and square! I'm so proud of him!

And TBH I wouldn't want to vote for someone that spent all the band's money and made the band almost be broke! (Yes the competitor did that 4-5 years ago when he was in term, and he still has no explanation to where the money went.) And you never talked about the issues and what he was willing to do for the whole community to improve, only relied on gossip and lies to win this race. To me that's not a leader. And I'm thinking others started to see that too.

Well the drama is over with and we can all get back to normal! For at least for another 4 years then the drama will start up all over again!

Well this is gonna be a short post! I'll keep you updated!

xoxo    

Happy New Year Everyone!

Projects I Really Want to Do!

Well today is official!

I started the cabbage soup diet. ugh!

By the end of the 7 days Ill be begging for a pizza lol!

The reason why I'm doing this is because I keep hearing about "the cabbage soup diet" and how it can help you lose 10lbs in 1 week. I'm willing to try this out to see if it really works. Besides I'm the kind of person that needs to see it to believe it type.

Today was like any other Sunday. Major cleanup day. (sort of?)
Clean the bed sheets, clean up the room, do the laundry, get ready for the school week coming up, just sort sort of my weekly ritual. But for some reason today I felt like I really needed a beer?

I hate that feeling. But at least I'm getting thru it. Sort of proud of myself for not begging for a beer. Now I just gotta keep to it all the way to friday than it's break time.

Just remember Sky just keep busy, just keep swimming, swimming, swimmin! And keep positive! Always think positive thoughts!

Lately I'm obsessed with organized things, like pictures of organized closets, offices, day planners, etc.

IDK?

It's just I wish I had that type of talent, but I'm slowly trying to gain that skill. It's hard and I gotta use my DIY and creative skills, But it will be worth it!

I will soon be this organized!
This shall all be mines soon!!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!

xoxo

Jealousy of Mothers and Life (to me at least?)

I have a new theory about life.

What if a person like me try to live the life of a mom? Without being a mom.

Is that even possible?

Have other people tried it?

All my friends that have kids and people I look up to have kids seem to have a stable life, sadly the kind of life I want but with out kids (do you kind of get it?).

It's just how happy they are, how proud they are, how they know what the next step is (sort of).

If you know what I mean then you get it. But others might have problems understanding.

I'm not say getting pregnant is the answer to happiness. I'm just saying people that experienced that seem to me have a happy stable life.

Ive tried the so called "right" way:

Kane and I dated awhile
We moved in together
We got dogs together

The next step is to get engaged, than married, then kids and so on. But we are not there yet on the list incase you haven't noticed.

IDK?
Maybe it's just the beauty of how these mothers are living there lives?
Inspiration?
Motivation?
Determination? 

IDK?

It's just how there living there lives is inspiring to me (they have to tell me there secrets! lol!)

I have a list of moms in my head that inspire me,
They just keep on going.
Don't stop.
Until what needs to get done gets done.

So this post is to moms that gets shit done to provide a better life for there kids.

They inspire me

I just wish I have what they have, the dream? The inspiration?

IDK

Let's just say I'm sort of jealous of you

I wish I knew what my life should focus on,
But since it's still like this life is throwing me random balls and I don't know what to focus on.

This is a shout out to all hard working mothers.

You have my respect!
<3

xoxo

Next step: My Closet! (duh duh duh!)

Lately I want to wear my extensions again, wear makeup again.

Before I felt like I didn't need to wear any of it because I had no motivation, I just sort of let go of the idea. But now, I'm not sure what changed? Maybe it's because I want to be this new person, a better person, a new routine. Like they say if you want to be a new you, then you have to be a new you.

Lately Kane and I's life feel like this.

So starting tomorrow or the next day I'm going to clean out my closet and make it organized!
Color-coded and everything!

Today has to be a short post, sorry guys! I promise more details tomorrow!

xoxo

Thank you Jamie

Here's my babies saying HELLO!!!!!!!

From Audrey to Hannah and Raquel!!!!!!




Anyways lately I've been thinking about what kind of life I want to have……
And to be honest I would want my friend Jamie's life.
She's married to someone she loves, she has 3 beautiful kids and she has a job that she loves and keeps doing!

I would kill for a life like that!!!!!!! Actually I'm trying to get my life like that.

She tells me she's been to the hospital for over working herself………..Well hell can i switch with you to see how that feels! (because someone like me will never feel that)
But seriously I wish I can have what you have or the experience.
I'm tryna make myself a workaholic but its slowly coming.

IDK most people will think it's unhealthy to think like this but if you know me, and how I grew up then this is a fucking improvement!!!!!!


All I'm saying is I want to get married to someone I love, have kids and get paid to do the things I love/like. Is that to much to ask for?



I guess you can say the life I want is my friend Jamie's, the experiences, the security, the truth and honest living.
IDK how I can explain it more……….  but just the motivation in everything in life, family, love home, work. I want that!!!!!!!

Let's just say Jamie has been 1 of my idols growing up (mother, best friend) and through all the ups and downs it seems like she prepared me for that (I'm ready for it).

I'm ready to make my life how I want it to be, and it's all thanks to her.



xoxoxo  

Hair Stuffz

Ok so I think I'm going to make a journal on different hair products.
Well I'm trying to grow out my hair (and my hair sadly breaks at a certain point.
I wish I had my old hair back!!!!!!!!

Yeah! I was pretty and cute back then! LOL!

But I've decided to test the shampoo and conditioners that promise results!
I'll record the type of shampoo and conditioner, when i started it and when it ended, and the result from the product. Basically if it worked or if it is a sham!
There has got to be some miracle to let us help our hair grow! I hope I find it!!!! Wish me luck!!!! I'll keep you updated!!!!


xoxo

Sky Scream

Try To Figure It Out

Well have you evert felt like you really want to do something and you have your mind is set on something (activity, routine, life, etc) but something is stopping you?

Lately I've been feeling that.

I don't know if it's lack of motivation or something I forgot todo but it's getting to me.
Plus it's been making me moody and grouchy.

I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!


I've been testing out some theories on how to get rid of this feeling. 
Here's my list:

1. Drink beer. Drink Up!!!!!
Maybe getting tipsy, buzzed, drunk, or shit faced will spark up a idea of what 
I was missing. (Or to have 1 of a good time, it really all depends on how you look at the situation)

2. SLEEP!!!!!
Cuz who doesn't love sleep! it restarts you every morning (or night. It don't matter I don't judge) and gives you a feeling of a new day new start kind of thing you kno?



And to be honest that hasn't been working for me.
So maybe to get out of this funk is another theory I've had:

1. WAKE UP IN THE MORNINGS!!!!!!
So i can make it into school, instead of waking up at 3pm. (basically wasting my whole day away)

2. TALKING!!!!!!!!
Because lately my boyfriend and I have not been talking about our feelings, thoughts, and saying what we really want to say.
To be honest we've been silent and mad at each other for no reason!! And it's been driving me crazy!!!
We need to set some rules for each other and our relationship so we don't get into the same situation again or IDK? Something like that tho.

3. DON'T GET LAZY!
I don't know how to spell the word but basically when you want to do something but you get lazy and you don't. (You know the feeling) FORCE YOURSELF TO GET UP AND DO WHATEVER THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE!

4. GET BUSY!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to make myself busy, as should you too. 
I'm trying to each time on my day to do something, basically to keep me busy. (Hopefully this will shake off the feeling)

Well yeah those are my so called steps I'll try on myself.
I'll let you know if they really worked.

I'll keep you posted!!!!

xoxo 

Need new routine

I admit I have a lot of notebooks and binders for different things, 
-blogs I like and want to remember 
-ideas for projects styles I like 
-fashions I like 
-budgets, etc. 
Basically anything I can think of I would have a notebook or binder for. Naturally you would think I would be on "top " of things but personally my discipline with myself is very low, I do stupid things that I know that I shouldn't but I still do it, I'm only human.





But the kind of routine I've always wanted was Jane Ryan's routine.

She is just a character that Ashley Olsen plays, but in my eyes she just seems like "the kind of person I want to be"

Jane just seems so balanced to me (something I've personally needed in my life BTW)
So my new goal is to somewhat have her sort of routine in my life.
Ill keep you posted if I succeeded or not and give you some tips if you guys want any.
Wish me luck!

XOXO

Motto

Is this your motto?
this is mine! (tryna be)
Don't you agree?
lol!

xoxo