Boring life at the moment

Hey guys!
It's been awhile since I blogged, but ALOT has happened!

OMG!!

Well my house is being re-done by Red Cross (since last years flood kinda wrecked our house)

Me and my grandma are staying at the Wesley trailers.

It's different…………………………………….3 meals a day, housekeeping once a week…………but the constant visitors u need to keep track and such. TBH it's kinds like i'm in rehab!!!!!!
Believe me I know the feeling!(it's a long story lol!)

I mean I want my boyfriend to sleep over some nights, but it seems like there is a strict rule about that not happening. This place is suppose to give us a home, make it feel like home……………if I can't do that then it dosent feel like home, u kno?

I can't even drink here!!!!!!!!!
But you know what!?
I sneak my beers in LOL!!!!

Well next step……………..sneak boyfriend in or I will throw a fit!!!!!LOL (But really I will do that)

RED CROSS should get there shit done quickly! I wanna go HOME!!!!!

The trailers feel so small (is so small, since I have so much clothes!)

Well whatever, Ill tell you more tomorrow. I'm just kinda tired right now!

Goodnite!

xoxo

Stupid Ideas and Waste of Money

Well yesterday was a roller coaster ride.

Let's just say I got upset with Kane for going back on his word. But honestly I shouldn't have been all that surprise. It always happens.

He left to his mom's house. I thought it was gonna be quick and D called for him so I thought it was harmless. But than he came back at 9 kind of drunk wanting to borrow something of mines and go back to the house. He told me they invited him to a barbecue. At this point I thought this was a slap in the face. He promised me he would be a better boyfriend, and that all this bullshit would stop, but here it was back on course. Kane would make a promise and keep to it for a week or 2, then either D or someone get him to do something than he goes back to his old ways.

I'm just tired of the promises he hasn't kept, to be honest I don't trust his word anymore. I need to see it to believe it now.

I just wish these people didn't have such a hold over him. He needs to improve his life but these people are just bringing him down and making him be in the same place.

But I still haven't given up on him.

I know how hard it is to change because I'm going through it myself. But the difference between me and him is that I know what's bringing me down and I think things through, I keep my promises, I keep moving forward and keep getting things done, and I know how to say no.

Let's just say yesterday I was doing a lot of thinking.
I'm always the one cleaning up his messes including mine. And he needs to start seeing that. Cause I'm the one that has to use my own money to get the car (even though he said he was gonna pay for it), how I noticed this is that first he promised his social check to me, than after a couple weeks he wants to sell weed and only give me $40 out of the profit for the car.

Well then that's gonna take a lot time for saving up just only $40 at a time to get $2500. I need the car by this summer! He needs a new plan! But of course I know this isn't him talking, it sounds like D talking.

I don't trust this plan, I don't trust D. It sounds like the exact same thing like last year and all Kane got was screwed over.

Let's just say Kane gave D $700 for weed so he can sell it. D got the weed sold some and never gave Kane a single cent!!!!! NOTHING!!!

PLUS!!
Kane bought him some sort of hunting gun? All because D wanted it. Money wasted, nothing was gained through this.

I was so angry when I found all of this out, I demanded he get his money back but of course he put up a fight and defended D. Now he regrets buying him those stuff and wishes he listened to me. Well I did warn him. Now it's all up to me to pay the bills, to get the groceries, and to make sure he have money to survive the month. And he feels bad that he can't help.

It's like talking to a WALL!!
No wonder why I drink!!
I have so much stress on my plate, and not the good ones I want!

Kane is not here right now, he is at his mom's house because D called for him again (like always)
I'm just here writing this blog and going through the budget (again), and going through this month's and next month's things that need to get done. And I'm also watching House just to take my mind of of things at the same time.

I always feel like every time Kane goes to his mom's house D has more influence to him, and he brings back his stupid ideas and shitty attitude back home so that I have to deal with it.

IT'S CALLED COMMON SENSE!!!
People should use it more often!

Looks like I have to be the brain for both of us until he can finally see that he has his own brain to use. Well at least I have something to look forward too, I'm having a couple of beers later so it can take the edge off. Kane will probable get mad, but you know what! I don't care, I've been working very hard and I deserve a break once in a while!

I'll keep you posted!

xoxo

Wow, I didn't know I can get annoyed, I think?

Well just finished sorting out my files, let's just say my office is half way completed.

But still a lot of work to-do (as part of my new routine.)

Today I figured out one of my pet peeves.

While we were at school (and the school is closed for spring break) I noticed I was the only one that was working on my assignments, while Kane was just on the computer just wasting time and not doing any work for 5 hours! (and believe me we are way behind on our work since our tests are in June)

BUT IT DROVE ME CRAZY!!!!!
And of course I didn't say anything……. Like always…..

I can see it now, when the teacher tells him the deadline is coming up, he will panic and worry, he will start to blame me for how I let happen to let him get way behind, he will give up, and have to restart his classes all over again.

Well I shouldn't worry about that yet. It's still to early.

Now time to make some dinner, do some homework, go through my day planner, organize my purse, my school bag, my bedroom and the list goes on. All by watching a House marathon all at the same time.

What can I say!

I LOVE that show!!!

xoxo

Obsessed!!!!!!

Well lately I've been obsessed with a certain blog.
IDK secretly I'm a organized freak, but i never really show it! ………Maybe because it's cause of my OCD?
Well whatever! It has given me great ideas on how to organize things, in my home and in my life.
IDK but the blog is very addictive.
its called a bowl full of lemons

check it out
a bowl full of lemons

IDK but I can't get enough of it's useful tips and ideas!!!!!

See!!!!! this is absolutely amazing!!!!!

I'm going to do some of these projects on my own, I'll keep you posted on how I am doing. Because I have a feeling that this is going to be sometime.

xoxo

Happy life but still stress!

Well my life has been busy, school full time while raising 5 puppies at the same time, it's stressful. But I wouldn't give up on them, each one has there own unique personality of there own.
To be honest I'd rather have puppies than children right now, at my point in my life I'm not ready for that yet, basically it's sort of like training you can say (in a way?).

The work is hard, but what would you do?
If you guys have any advice on raising puppies then let me know!

Wish me luck!!!!

xoxo

Pink Home Coming Soon!!!!!!!

Ok for some of us it is impossible to redo our home with the kind of budget were on! (Were all normal people so sometimes we don't have alot of money to blow it on redoing our house!)
So my mission is to redo my whole house that will stick to my budget!!!!!!!!!!
I have ideas in my head to make it a girly house! But then again I do have a boyfriend and I don't want him to get embarrassed every time he brings his friends over for game night so I guess I have to dial it down.
But hopefully it will look some what like this I hope!

You get the idea!
This would be my dream house!!!!!!

I'll be posting pictures soon of the before and afters!
And I'll tell you how I did it and how much it costed!!!!!
I'll keep you guys posted!!!!!



xoxo
Sky Scream

Future plans

Ok well me and my boyfriend live together, plus we own a house together. This summer we want to renovate everything! I have big plans for this house while all he cares about "if he can still get Xbox live on it!"
Men!
Lol
I know I'm young to have a house with my boyfriend.
But it's our decision, no one else is! Were happy!